I got back from the doctors who share my care and they wanted to talk about the rules.
I have a condition, one that the can't (despite years of study) work out what it is. It makes me black out, fall to the floor and twitch. However it is not epilepsy. Definitely not epilepsy trust me. Anyway, so while they don't know what it is I can't drive (fair enough), am allowed to work (shame people won't hire me, and you have to tell them its a legal requirement) and have issues being pregnant.
My family gave me endless sh*te, saying it was irresponsible and selfish to even think about having a baby now. While I see there point, when I first started having these turns I stopped my life waiting for it to get fixed. Then reality hit, I shouldn't be putting my life on hold, it could take years (funnily enough it has) so I went to uni, and did things I wanted to do, which included getting pregnant. My husband and I agreed not to wait because as evidence showed it could take years and never go away.
Anyway, I went to the doctors and they told me when Baby come I am on epilepsy rules, which means that I can't walk with my baby, bath my baby (without my husband there) and I can't hold the baby unless I am sitting down, and I have to push my baby in the pushchair when I am home.
I understand all these rules, what I don't understand is how I am going to do it. My husband is in the navy, and goes away for long periods of time. My parents work full time and live in another town, same with mother-in-law and father-in-law. I can't get government help because my condition doesn't have a name.
Wahhh! *has crying jag*